Okay, I posted a camping blog on my tumblr to but I have to get this out to the world. I absolutely HATE going to tntt now. I am known as Zimmie and friends. DHJGHAKDGA, I hate it. I hate it so much. I feel like I have to get out of this. Honestly, I did NOT enjoy camping at all. Each day, I woke up to be discriminated because my 'friends' are fucking annoying sluts. I have no idea what I should do. Stay unhappy or should I become a Zimmie so I can feel fully accepted. Right now, I'm in the middle of being those annoying whore and being a normal person. For now, I'll just put on a happy face so things can be the way they used to be, which is us annoying girls verses everyone else.

Yesterday was Friday. Thank God.

School was whatever. I was suppose to go to Jessica's with Chen but I fell asleep and was too lazy to do anything.

Then I went to dance practice till 10. It was tiring. I wasn't giving it everything I got but whatever. There's another one today at 7. I think I just need to remember my steps, emphasize my body, and just smooth and polish the routine. And I still need to find those pants...

Yesterday was my brother's birthday too! He's getting old.

Today was the Light a Life charity dinner.
I have to say, I was disappointed. I expected so much fun but it was only okay.

To begin with, my fucking phone was being stupid. I made Anton and Franklin walk everywhere to look for me. I felt soo bad. My cousin drove me and he wasn't much help. I was such a burden to everyone.

Well, I saw Kenny and Robell first and we contacted Anton and Franklin. There was a girl there! Ohlala. Well, they walked a lot...sorry. We went inside and we saw Chen's table. After I saw him, I was in a bad mood. But I tried to cheer up. Maybe I tried too hard. Everyone around me was in a bad mood. So I was just going with the flow. The salad was soo soggy. Anton didn't eat ANYTHING. The light was in my face. Gosh, it was bad. But I tried to have fun. Joseph came on and I tried to seem happy. The food came and Anton didn't even eat one bite, Kenny had to eat it for him. After the show, my dad was drunk so he couldn't drive. And when my mom drives, it's all bad. I was scared of getting kidnapped so I made everyone wait for me. Turns out they wanted to stay so Cindy, my lifesaver, went with me. Thanks soooooo much. It was really really scary walking in the dark. My phone kept dying so my parents got mad. Cindy and I walked all the way to the other side of the school where my parents came. We drove her back to the C-commons. My parents were arguing the whole way back. I just crashed when I got home. And people were still at my house, partying.

I wish this day never happened. I was being so whiny and trying too hard at everything. I tried so hard for everyone else to have fun but I didn't even have fun myself. Everything would have I better if I just stayed home.


And tomorrow, I have to go the tntt at 11!